September 19, 2021
  • 7:00 am Outstanding Professor Award Recipient’s Mic Drop Moment at Last Month’s Virtual Ceremony
  • 9:10 am Bookworms of the World Unite!
  • 7:46 pm Breaking News: All Students Living in Campus Housing Required to Receive COVID-19 Vaccine
  • 9:00 am CSUDH Esports Creates International Competition
  • 9:35 am Spring Commencement Ceremonies Get Brighter
  • 3:46 pm Breaking News: Spring Commencement Ceremonies Recieve Stadium Upgrade
  • 8:00 am Testing the Teachers (and All the Educators)
  • 9:30 am CSUDH Educators and School Employees, Vaccinated Next
  • 10:30 am For White People Only: Anti-Racism Workshop Addresses Racial Bias and Unity
  • 2:43 pm Greatness Personified: Remembering Kobe Bryant
  • 10:02 am Straight Down the Chimney and Into Your (Digital) Hands: Special Holiday Edition of The Bulletin!
  • 2:44 pm Did You Wake up Looking this Beautiful?
  • 11:43 am A Long History for University’s Newest Major
  • 5:15 pm Issue 5 of Bulletin Live! Collector’s Item! Worth its Weight in Digital Paper!
  • 4:06 pm Special Election Issue
  • 4:03 pm Three best Latinx Halloween & Horror Short Films available now on HBO Max
  • 9:49 am Issue 3 of CSUDH Bulletin Live if You Want It
  • 3:24 pm Hispanic Heritage Month Update
  • 2:00 pm South Bay Economic Forecast Goes Virtual
  • 3:52 pm BREAKING NEWS: Classes for Spring to be Online, CSU Chancellor Announces
  • 9:39 am “Strikes” and Solidarity
  • 8:30 am March Into History: Just 5 in 1970, CSUDH Growth Shaped by Historic Event
  • 8:30 am Will the Bulletin Make Today Tomorrow?
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  • 5:07 pm STAFF EDITORIAL: Even Socially Distant, We All Have to Work Together
  • 5:47 pm Transcript of CSUDH President Parham’s Coronavirus Announcement
  • 10:46 am Cal State Long Beach Suspends Face-to-Face Classes; CSUDH Discussing Contingency Plans
  • 5:26 pm Things Black People Should be Able to Get Away with This Month
  • 10:25 am Latinx Students Need a Place to Call Home
  • 2:35 pm Will Time Run Out Before Funds for PEGS? [UPDATED]
  • 8:41 am Year of the Rat? What’s That?
  • 6:20 am Artist Who Gave Life to Death and Inspired Countless Others Gets His Due at Dominguez Hills
  • 5:16 pm Why I’m Rooting for Dr. Cornel West
  • 5:00 pm Under Fire from the Feds, Vaping’s Future is Cloudy
  • 3:28 pm We’re Going to Need a Bigger Boat; Tsunami 3.0 Hits Campus, Enrollment Swells
  • 1:22 pm THE FIRST ISSUE OF THE BULLETIN IS HERE
  • 4:48 pm University Weathering a Wave of New Students
  • 9:21 pm The Bulletin’s Public Records Request Offers Springboard to Launch Gender Equity Discussion at CSUDH
  • 4:27 pm Black is the New Black: Raising the Capital on the “B” Word
  • 10:53 am Guns Up for Arrest: Student advocacy group pushes for CSU No Gun Zones–Including the Police
  • 4:09 pm Staff Editorial: Words on the First
  • 8:42 pm Carson Mayor Blasts Media, Landmark Libel Case in Keynote Address
  • 9:27 am Free Speech Week Calendar of Events Update
  • 6:02 am Food for Thought: 40% of Students are Food Insecure
  • 3:12 pm Academic Senate Rejects CSU GE Task Force & Report
  • 3:06 pm Work To Be Done
  • 5:56 pm ASI Elections: What You Need to Know
  • 8:02 pm CSUDH President Parham Announces Cancer Diagnosis
  • 9:47 am CSUDH Art Professor’s 20-Year Journey Results in First Local Showing of Film
  • 9:13 pm Free Speech or Free Hate area?
  • 9:08 pm CSUDH’s Best & Brightest Shine at Student Research Day
  • 9:05 pm Academic Senate Approves Gender Equity Task Force
  • 12:37 pm When Dr. Davis speaks, Toros Pay Close Attention
  • 3:38 pm Investing in the Future: Dr. Thomas A. Parham Reflects on the Past Eight Months and Contemplates​ the University’s Future
  • 3:24 pm Green Olive to Open By End of Feb; Starbucks Not Until Fall
  • 3:20 pm Gov. Newsom’s Proposed Budget Hailed for Extensive Funding Increases
  • 3:08 pm Out of the Classroom: Labor and Community Organizing Course Aims to Teach Students How to Organize for Social Justice
  • 2:54 pm The Other Route in Professional Sports
  • 9:02 am Hail to the New Chief, CSUDH President Thomas Parham
  • 3:36 pm Career Center Holds Major/Minor Fair
  • 5:34 pm After Unexpected Delay, Undocumented Becomes More Intimate Theatrical Production
  • 1:30 pm What to Expect When You’re Expecting New Buildings
  • 7:06 pm Part Two of the Bulletin’s Epic Five-Part Series on Diversity in Superhero Comic Books: Focus on LGBTQ Representation
  • 5:46 pm To Celebrate Pride Month Here’s Part 2 of the Bulletin’s Series on Diversity in Comic Books–No, Make That Friday
  • 9:00 am Letter From The Editors

After studying for my bachelor’s degree for the last 10 years, I won’t be walking to the stage to accept that diploma by myself; my child will be with me every step of the way. Photo by Desiree Lee.

By Desiree Lee, Staff Reporter

Palms sweating, heavy breathing and endless nights that drift off into nightmares of what needs to be done before graduation. Every senior on the verge of graduating has the moment of clarity where they realize that this is it. That feeling of, “I did it.” 

In life, there are little moments of impact that make us into who we are. College life hasn’t been easy but after many highs and lows, I am finally graduating in May. I’ve had my fair share of trials and tribulations, from struggling to get into a university to learn that I would be having a child unexpectedly. 

Right before freshman year in 2011, I received a letter from California State University, Dominguez Hills saying I was rescinded. As I collapsed onto my knees, my mother found me shaking. Handing her the letter, I asked her, “what do they mean rescinded?”

I learned that I did not pass my Spanish final by 1%. I graduated highschool with a C- and therefore did not qualify to attend CSUDH. Admissions told me that I could fight it, but it could take years.

I felt humiliated. All of my high school friends would be attending university within the week and I felt left behind.  I couldn’t speak to anyone for two days and the stress had caused me to develop Bell’s Palsy on the right side of my face. 

Later that week, I looked at myself in the mirror and I didn’t like what I saw. Not because the right side of my face was twisted, but because I saw an empty shell. I did not see the strong young woman who graduated high school with various awards in poetry, science and athletics. 

A moment of impact.

I took a deep breath and instead set my sights on attending Cerritos Community College and transferring to CSUDH. After a couple of years at CCC, I was excelling in my writing and I graduated with an Associate of Art in English. The following semester I was accepted into CSUDH and it finally felt like everything was falling into place. 

Once I stepped onto the CSUDH campus in the fall of 2016, I kissed my planner. At that moment, I felt that my hard work and emotional turmoil paid off. Little did I know that once again, my life would take another turn. While I loved being an English major, I hit a wall. I didn’t know what I wanted to do with a degree in English and I felt like I was just going through the motions.

At a bigger campus, I felt that my voice was lost. Some days I would find myself not attending class and my papers that were once the best in class at Cerritos College were not cutting it at the university level. 

A year went by and I had no drive for anything, whether it was my classes or even making friends. With my grades slipping, I ended up on academic probation more than once. I felt like I had lost myself. Then one day, a student approached me. He had noticed that I was always alone and thought that maybe I would rather talk to someone instead of always watching Netflix. 

Again, I felt a moment of impact.

The student had asked me to assist him in filming a commercial as a part of a marketing campaign for his public relations class. I only held some reflectors but the spark that I had lost came back to life. It took me sitting in on a few public relations and journalism classes before I officially switched my major to Journalism in the fall 2018 semester. 

After living through an unfortunate circumstance such as Covid-19, I was ready for 2021 to be a new start. Little did I know the final impact of my life was going to come at me unexpectedly.

Come May, after 10 years of pursuing my degree, I will be the first person to graduate college in my family. However, I won’t be alone. I’ll be walking with my child who has been growing within me for the last six months. 

Most women that have been wanting a family would be more than happy to see the word pregnant on their pregnancy test. I wasn’t ready for a family. I was conflicted, stuck between being happy and scared. I didn’t know what to do. I was working full-time in the hospitality field and I was attending school full-time.

There were some days that I would find myself falling apart. I had missed classes and assignments because I had to keep up with work while caring for the life growing inside of me. This was the most challenging part of my life.

One thing that is different now is my life is no longer my own. Every day that I want to give up, but I am always reminded of who is depending on me to trudge on and succeed just by feeling the little kicks inside my belly. 

In July my child will be born, and as the days start to grow closer I can feel our bond growing stronger. Day by day I am setting up my child’s future, and one day I will be able to tell them this story and how they were the final moment of impact in this chapter of my life. I will be able to tell my child of all the obstacles that I had to overcome to be where I am today, to show them to never give up, no matter what happens or what challenges they may face.  

A Final Moment of Impact. 

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